-by Lyrik08
I'm a new mommy to a 5-month-old bundle of baby boy joy.
I say that, smile and then pause.
My life is filled with daily blessings of juicy kisses, the smile that melts your heart, the touch of a little hand that lets you know that life is truly a gift from God and the giggle that makes you feel like a kid again.
Again, I pause.
My life has also been filled with sleepless nights, countless bottles, laundry, little socks (that go missing), cries, poopy diapers and uncertainties about my parenting skills.
Gone are the days when my biggest concern was what I was going to fix for dinner tonight, or what my husband and I were going to be doing for the weekend, or what movie to see--the latest black love story, or the latest epic thriller.
I never would have imagined that my life would be so fixated and consumed with the Disney Channel, or NickJr that I'd know the daily show line up to the point where I know when to catch the Mickey Mouse Clubhouse or could recite the entire Backyardigans theme song along with all of the character names. Or, that my DVD library would slowly be overpopulated with the latest movie inspired by one of the aforementioned.
Who knew my living room would look like a mini kid camp with the latest gizmos and gadgets to keep my son occupied. I never thought I'd be reading up on the latest recalled baby items or researching which shots we can do without and worrying about which bottles to buy and if I should put them in the microwave or not. I even faithfully get the Sunday paper to see who has the best sale on Huggies and Enfamil and what coupons I can clip to make life just a tab bit more economical.
Let's not even mention that going shopping now means bypassing the cute outfit and matching shoes in the store window. Now, it's a beeline to Carters or Osh Kosh, Old Navy (again not for me) and Target is a marathon adventure spent mostly in the Baby section perusing the baby necessities -- man they grow so fast.
Again, I pause.....and a smile fills my face.
You know what......I don't mind the change one bit and wouldn't trade it for the world.
These are the feelings and blessings for which you can never be prepared.
My son is the joy in my heart....the laughter in my soul.....the calm in my storm. When I have a bad day at work, he reminds me not to sweat the small stuff because there are much bigger things in this world. He's such a ray of sunshine. He brings so much meaning to a world and life that was once so confusing. He has given me purpose--a drive beyond compare.
Even in the midst of all the confusion about being a first time mom, doubting my abilities to care for such a fragile life and hoping and praying to every God that I don't screw up this poor child......I know that all he wants and needs from me is to cuddle him when he cries and to play peek-a-boo once in a while. He doesn't ask for much and he doesn't expect me to be perfect and I can't expect to be perfect either. We're both in this baby training camp together and we'll make it through just fine.
How was your transition to being a new mommy? Share your story with us in the comments section.
1 comments:
I smiled as I read this post. It truly captures my own thoughts/sentiments! :-)
Im a new mommy as well, to a 7 month old. And, like you, my life has changed so utterly and completely, all I can do sometimes is shake my head and chuckle about it.... and yet, any of the little things that I do miss (about the pre-parenting days) are such a minuscule price to pay for the happiness/love that engulfs me when I look into DS's impish, grinning face and twinkling eyes.
I love being a mom so much, and this post captures that so well!!! Thanks for this.
~Yakini @ The Prissy Mommy Chronicles
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